Deficit is a Semi-Fictional Experiential ADHD Story, based on real-life ADHD experiences. Navigate your way through several vignettes as you learn more about how structural barriers and attitudes can create a difficult environment for those whose brains work differently. Read the Artist Statement at First Person Scholar here.

Best played on Firefox in Fullscreen (F11/FN+F11), on a laptop or desktop computer.

Playtime: About 15 minutes.



Content Warning:

This game contains Flashing and Blinking lights, and References to: ADHD, mental health, medication, drugs, trauma, and self-esteem. Some content may be distressing to some players.

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StatusReleased
PlatformsHTML5
Release date Oct 16, 2020
Rating
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AuthorGav Sarafian
GenreInteractive Fiction
Made withTwine, Adobe Photoshop
Tagsadd, adhd, Mental Health, neurodivergent, Text based, Twine
Average sessionA few minutes
LanguagesEnglish
InputsMouse

Install instructions

Download the .exe, and run it! 
PLEASE NOTE: You likely will have to tell Windows/Mac that the file is safe, and your antivirus might not like it either. Executable is mostly for archival purposes; some visual effects do not work. For best experience, play in Firefox!

Download

Download
Deficit-1.1.exe 78 MB

Development log

Comments

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As a teen who was diagnosed at a super young age, I found this game incredibly accurate and I want to just express the absolute awe i have for your creation rn. A masterpiece for sure <3

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I have ADHD and playing this was just too overwhelming. Sorry I couldn't finish.

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That's perfectly okay - I appreciate that you tried!

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It's lowkey scary how accurate this is for me. My parents are so pissed that I don't get homework done but this is the exact reason why but I feel so guilty saying "I can't focus and do school because I have ADHD" as though I am using one of my mental disorders as an excuse to get them to stop being upset at me for not doing my homework. I cannot focus, I get so overwhelmed, I can hear everything, but it doesn't register for me. This game just gives me reassurance that I'm not alone and what I go through is valid. 

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I'm glad that it could give you reassurance. Knowing yourself is an important step in being able to set boundaries, and to ask for help (when you want it, ofc). I hope that things go better for you!

I used to have a lot of imagination, i still have some but not nearly as much. Me and my friend have ADHD and i'm going to share this with him later today, i will (hopefully) come back here and tell you his thoughts. (That is if i don't forget.) Also, thank you so much for making this.

Thank you for playing! <3

Thanks for this. I was diagnosed with the combined subtype at age 6, and I've had to slog through A LOT of stigma along the way. Perhaps this might help clarify things for people...

I'm glad you found this game! Feel free to share it with anyone you'd like :)

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As someone with ADHD theres not much i can say other than Thank you.

This means a lot, thank you for playing!

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As someone with ADHD this really helps me
thank you for making this people can finally understand how i feel

Thank you for playing!

thank you for making it

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Thank you thank you thank you. I was diagnosed with ADHD at age 19, about five years ago. I think about my disorder Every Day. I can't Not think about it. 

I'm so grateful you were able to put this experience together. I've wanted to make something that simulates the experience of ADHD for a while, but- surprise!- I haven't gotten around to it yet. I love how you were able to highlight the severity of the symptoms- how much they interfere with everyday life, how present it always is- without creating a sense of hopelessness.

The "Fix Cable" scenario hit me the hardest. Like: why did that take so long? I was being good! I chose to fix the cable every time! I really do mean to fix the cable, but I just can't, for reasons that I can't control nor explain; and nobody seems to see that I've been deciding to fix the cable this whole time, I promise, I know how to do it, why can't I just do it--

Also! I gave a little cheer when I saw you included Dr. Russell Barkley's book Taking Charge of Adult ADHD in the resources. He delivers information in an ADHD-friendly manner, and I recommend Dr. Barkley's work to anyone that wants to know more about this disorder.

Again: this really resonated with me. I'm so glad you made it, and shared it, and that I got to play it. Thank you.

Thank you for playing! I'm glad you got so much out of it. I wanted to present a perspective from a lived experience, without being too preachy or negative-- I hope I accomplished that!